Guess who's back... Again

Hello lovelies

So basically I stopped blogging for a while. Why I hear my avid readers ask? (Cue tumble weed... Is that the right cue spelling?) Because my darlings real life got the better of me. Scott is back at work full time, I have a toddler now... Yes he walks and everything, I have a flat to maintain whilst also trying to keep myself maintained! So basically I had to decide what wasn't as important to look after and obviously my blog was not a priority so I said bye bye to it for a while. 

But I am back! For now at least. I'm not going to back promises of how often I'm going to post I'm just going to post when I can and about what ever I want to or whatever is going on at the time. So it's now more of an as and when blog. It'll still entail the same sort of stuff eg baby, life, food, games, reading and beauty. Though probably a lot of baby stuff as he's still (of course) the centre of my world though I will try to add in other bits.

So for now this is just my "Helloooooo" post and will be back to my merry old blogging ways! I hope you enjoy and carry on enjoying what I post. 

Until I post again why not go back and read some of my old posts and maybe let me know if there is anything you'd like e to ramble about! I'm sure I can pretty much talk about anything. 

Take it easy

Ellie x

This week

Hello there!
I knooow its been over a week. But we had Jacks birthday, then Jacks birthday party, then Jack was tested for allergies and I was ill. I really only have time to do this because Jack has fallen asleep on me, so I can't move, so everything has to wait apart from my blog.


I've pretty much told you what's happened this week. So I'm going to ramble. I was suppose to do my gothic tag, as I used to be a 'goth'. I suppose I should use the term loosely as everyone's perception of Goth is completely different and I'm not getting into that debate. I liked a certain style of clothing, music, decor etc so in my mind that was Goth. I will do it soon, possibly when Scotts off I we're not ridiculously busy. So that will be soonish.


Last night and this morning I've been watching 'One Born Every Minute'. Its making me remember everything I went through when i was in hospital about to have Jack and everything that followed. It does make me nostalgic and I well up thinking of it all! Another part of me gets broody, I cannot wait to give Jack a little brother or sister. But I will wait as I want to put all my attention on Jack and I have got a set of requirements before having another one, such as i want Jack to be potty trained and in nursery or reception. I want Jack to be old enough to kind of comprehend that he will have a brother or sister.
Basically I'm bloody picky but want a baby!
I'm going to stop blabbering now as think I've done enough and Jack will probably wake up soon!


so yes hopefully new blog post soon. Stay tuned!!


Take it Easy


Ellie x

Once a week..

Hello my lovelies!


I'm guessing you have gathered from the title what I'm basically trying to say is that until further notice I will only be doing a blog post once a week. Unfortunately it is just how it is until I've got a routine properly in place as Scott is back at work and I'm trying to do everything at once!


I've started my healthy living. Which has included a change of diet (not some fad diet. I mean a full on life changing diet that I have to live with forever), daily exercise and some gentle detox. Plus looking after my body in the sense of moisturising and such. Its actually taking a lot more to make these changes as its an all at once change which can obviously be daunting to anyone but when you have to work it round cleaning, baby time and such the temptation to just eat bad stuff cause its easier is very tempting indeed.


But I am being good. I'm making meals from scratch instead of take aways or ready meals. This not only benefits myself but it benefits Jack and Scott as they get a healthier diet as well. Scotts in no way out of shape or anything but he doesn't eat healthy either so its a lifestyle change. I have porridge in the morning with blueberries and strawberries mixed in. Lunch I have a toasted sandwich or jacket potato/ new potatoes with some kind of topping and a hunk of veg/salad and for dinner I have my home made soup, which I make with all veg, no potatoes. No cream.


So that's started. Plus I'm trying to go for walks everyday, I didn't today but that was mainly because I did a load of house work and I feel I have worked my butt off and got sweaty so that's pretty good exercise and I haven't even finished yet, still need to hoover and mop the floors! Plus make soup! Gah I need to write a list.


This isn't a proper blog post, I'm going to do one tomorrow! I just really wanted to tidy up today and get the flat all sparkly so I can relax for a bit tomorrow and do the blog post properly. This is a 'Jacks asleep and I've put my feet up for a little while" post. Plus to tell you why I'm going to once a week as of tomorrow.


I still love doing my blog and like I say, once I've sorted my daily routine out then I can fit in a couple more posts during the week. Maybe when Jacks asleep and I've set up my laptop in the bedroom!


So yeah! Wish me luck everyone. Tomorrows post will be about my love for all things Goth! Plus how I use to do my Goth make up and why I toned it down :)


Keep an eye out lovelies!


Take it easy.


Ellie x

OH MY WORD!!!

As the title suggests! I have been so busy I have not had 5 minutes to myself. Usually if I don't have time during the day then I will do it once Jacks asleep but as soon as I put him to bed, I've been asleep as well!

The reason?

Scotts back at work, where before he would play with Jack and I would get a few minutes to do my blog or whatever I wanted to do, now he leaves at 9 in the morning and doesn't get back until 6 at night. So my days of consisted of playing, cleaning, cooking and all the fun stuff and by the time Scott gets in the place still looks a pig sty and I'm too tired to function!

That is why I haven't ...hang on I need to change Jacks nappy.

Ok I'm back!

That is why I haven't been able to do my blog, but today I decided I would make a concentrated effort to do it! As tomorrow Jack is going to be 1! Where has that time gone? I'll tell you. Feeding, crying, sleeping, crying, pooping whilst crying, feeding, playing, playing, feeding, playing, crying, feeding, giggling, smiling, falling down, falling up, crying, laughing, feeding!

Its been amazing and exhausting. Mostly amazing but the exhaustion was still there! He is so amazing and everyday I have watched his cheeky personality grow. He loves his mummy and daddy. I get snotty dribbling kisses every night and every morning.

I'm sorry this will be a short and sweet post as I have washing up to do and Jacks cakes and... JACK NOT THE BIN PLEASE!... have to sort the clothing out as well... I think Jacks destroyed some thing. Cool.

Take it eas... JACK!...easy!

Ellie x

What I've been up to! this week.

Hello lovely people.
Another, sort of, diary entry. Yes. I'm sorry.


Well the past week has been a bit of a slow one. I've had a image breakdown, a paranoid episode, laughed until I cried and went to see 'Fifty shades of grey'. What a week!


I'll start with my paranoid episode. I sometimes get these weird moments where I feel I'm being watched or some ones going to hurt me or my family. They come in little spikes every so often. They are horrible.
I had one at the start of the week and nearly deleted my blog because of it. I always think the worst. I hate being in cars and buses are even worse now, I always go through every horrible situation of what could happen when I'm in a car or on a bus. I'm pretty good at keeping it to myself but it makes me feel very odd that I have these thoughts.
I've come to terms with it but every so often its awful. I suddenly think some ones stalking me so delete everything, privatise what I can and freak out (in my mind). Outside it just looks like I'm playing on my phone. Then after I've done all this. I calm down. Regroup. Realise its ridiculous and carry on with my day. So that was a fun 10 minute start to my week!


My image breakdown. My weight more importantly. Now my mum has an illness I wont say what as she may not want me too. But its affecting her and the doctors told her to loose weight and she bloody did it. She went above and beyond. She looks bloody amazing! My sister even put up a before and after picture and I have never felt so proud.
Then I felt like crying. I am the fat one. Its not me having a go at my mum at all. But it gave me a sharp shock. I barely take pictures of my full body because I hate it. I don't wear certain things because I know I'll look gross. I also have the super power of making everyone think I was ok with my weight. I got defensive if anyone brought it up.
So I feel I had a breakthrough. I'm going to do it this time. Not just for me but for Jack and Scott. For my sisters wedding in 2 years time. I refuse to be the fat one anymore. The unhealthy one. I'm not going on some fad diet that won't last. I'm going to change the way I eat entirely. I'm going to walk everyday. I am going to do this!


Onto 'Fifty Shades of Grey'. I like the books and I don't care if you roll your eyes at this next bit as everyone does. But I usually skip most of the sex bits. Not because I'm a prude or whatever. Because its boring. It was over used. I really did like the story behind it all.
Ana and Christian, Ana's relationships with all the characters, the books from her point of view.
The movie was not. The relationships didn't have their passion. The relationship between Christian and Ana wasn't even as passionate or intense as I thought it was going to be. She had witty moments and some parts I smiled and grinned at. But most of it felt very clinical. Christian didn't even have copper coloured hair! What's that about.
 I liked it from Ana's perspective in the book, I liked her little internal arguments. No one looked how I thought they would. Really feel they should have said at the beginning, 'very loosely based on fifty shades of grey... There's sex'.
I will say the 'playroom' is exactly how I imagined it! I was so impressed and Escara was amazing. But things were changed, things were added. I understand they have to change things to fit it in to a movie form but they really could have done better. That's my opinion anyway.


So there you have it. A few things that have happened this week. Wish me luck with my healthy living weight loss!


Take it easy.


Ellie x

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Before and After!

Hello Ducks!!

First of all I would like to apologise for not posting in a few days, I have been so busy and my laptop had a fit and it seems to be ok at the moment but we'll see out it goes! So yeah sorry about the disappearance!

Well I have been meaning to do a before and after for quite a while now but its difficult to find the time (and motivation) to put lots of makeup on. But I have finally done it :)

Now I think I've said before I'm no expert in the make up field and I don't wear foundation or anything like that, I usually just stick to eyes and every so often may put something on my lips, but thats still rare. After having Jack I didn't wear makeup at all for a while, then starting put mascara on and then eyeliner and such. SO! since no one sees me in foundation I thought I would do a before and after, with 2 afters. One wear I use a brush to do my foundation and one where I don't. Mostly for me to see the difference a brush can make as well as you lovely lot! Variety right?

To begin with I will just list the products I am using, now I will say now I didn't spend a lot of money on the foundation as I wouldn't be using it a lot (if ever again after this) unless I liked the results, but then I could be fighting a loosing battle as a better foundation could give a better finish then the cheap stuff. So this is sort of a review as well as a before and after.

Products used:

• Rimmel London Fix & Perfect Pro Primer
• Boots Natural Collection ShineAway Foundation - Porcelain
• Boots Natural Collection CoverUp Cream - Fair
• Boots Natural Collection Pressed Powder - Cool
• Boots Natural Collection Suntint Bronzing Powder - Sun Shine
• Boots Natural Collection Blushed Cheeks - Rosey Glow
• MUA (MakeUp Academy) Eyeshadow Palette -Romantic Efflorescense
• MUA (MakeUp Academy) Eyeshadow Palette - Heaven & Earth
• Gosh Kohl/Eyeliner - Black
• Rimmel London Exaggerate Eye Liner - Black
• Scandaleyes - Black (For the first After Pictures)
• Maybelline New York Lash Sensational - Black (In second after pictures)
• Nivea Fruity Shine Lip Salve - Watermelon
• Rimmel London Apolalips - Nude Eclipse (In the second after pictures)

Brushes Used:

• Barry M Concealer brush
• Super Drug Foundation Brush
• Super Drug Power Brush
• Super Drug Contouring Brush
• Gosh Blending Brush (In Second After Pictures)
• Barry M Eyeshadow Brush
• Super Drug Eyelash Curler

Before: Fresh faced and ready to go

First After Pictures using a brush to do foundation

Second After Pictures Without using a foundation brush.

There it is then, my before and 2 afters. 

My review on the Boots Natural collection is this. I don't like it. The foundation is very dry, I tried adding some moisturiser to it to see if it improved it at all but it didn't really make much of a difference. It caked very easily and clustered around my nose and eyes, even the concealer did. I think for a first time person wanting to try foundation/concealer it just isn't worth it. Even at £1.99 each you might as well just save your money and get a decent one, Ask around instead. 

The powder didn't help it at all but it may be different with another foundation. The bronzer wasn't too bad especially if you are going for a more natural look and I like the blush. But all in all steer clear of it. With a brush you could see the brush strokes and when using my hands it caked almost instantly. So I think, unfortunately, I'll be throwing the foundation and concealer away completely. 

I may try MUA foundation and concealer as I really like their eyeshadows. Think they are really well made and a lovely variety of colours at an affordable price. Obviously if I had the money I probably would have bought a more expensive one but as my funds are short I went for the MUA and I'm not disappointed at all. Really love it and at £4 per palette you can't really go wrong!

So I hope you like my before and after post (Sorry again its late) and look out for more in the future and I will be doing a proper review soon on MUA (MakeUp Academy). Hopefully if I have some spare funds soon I'll be able to try their foundation! 

What foundation/concealer etc would you recommend and any comments on my actual make up would be appreciated. I really am just experimenting with it all again and trying to find something that compliments me... but isn't difficult to do!

Thanks beauts

Take it Easy!

Ellie x