Sorry and 30 Random facts about meeee.

Ok so I was suppose to have a post up last night or today about my tea for two with my mum, unfortunately due to my phone being ridiculous and my laptop dieing (rip) it is now going to have to wait till tomorrow! Sorry!


But instead I've decided to do a quickly 30 random facts about me!


OoooooOOOOoooo


Here we go!

1. I'm naturally ginger
2. I have hazel and green eyes
3. I want lots of tattoos but so far have 2 (Butterfly and Koi)
4. I met my husband on the 8th October 2005
5. I use to wear fishnets and black fluffy boots
6. Even when I was Goth I loved listening to pop
7. My wardrobe consists of mainly tshirts with different slogans and pictures on them
8. My name means bringer of light
9. I could easily play on the xbox all day with only toilet breaks and snack breaks
10. I could also do the same reading a book
11. I use to make boats and little paddles and hats for fairies in my mums garden
12. I sometimes wish I could be more girly but then my confidence gets in the way. Rude.
13. I don't like wearing foundation as I don't feel like my skin can breath
14. I like getting spots (sorry its a gross one)
15. I love vintage cars
16. I wear pajamas more then actual clothing and probably have more pj bottoms then I do trousers... In fact I know I do
17. I love making things from scratch, it tastes so much better
18. Since having my Jack I've lost 2 and a half stone just through breastfeeding (magical boobs)
19. I'm a very family orientated person and have maybe 2 people I trust outside of family
20. I don't trust people easily. But I have friendly
21. I inherited my granddads collection of Alice In Wonderland and have been adding to it as well
22. My Granddad was and still is a huge inspiration in my life
23. I have always been into gaming, my mum loved Sonic and I still remember coming home from School and she had been playing it all day and was really confused why I was already home. I guess that's where I got it from!
24. My husband and I keep our books and DVDs separate. I wouldn't but he says I have some awful DVDs he doesn't want his shuffled with and he only has like 6 books and there's no room left on my book shelves for his (there is really)
25. I make a lot of lists. I love making lists and sometimes I'll make a list then re write it in the most effective way.
26. I'm really bad when it comes to my weight. If some one tells me I've lost weight I immediately want to go and binge on bad food. So if I'm trying to get rid of weight I tell people not to say anything if they do notice. Otherwise the work in undone
27. I get obsessed with things very easily. Tv shows, games, books etc. I will watch every single season as soon as I can and I'm more emotionally attached to them then I am some of the real people in my life. Harry Potter, Doctor Who, Sherlock, Criminal Minds, Hannibal, Skulduggery Pleasant etc.
28. I think I'm pretty but hate the rest of my body
29. I like my hair
30. and last and probably not so much a fact but something I think about a lot. If I ever won the lottery I would help my family (like get a better care, better healthcare, better house or at least have it done through out and such and etc). Obviously I'd buy a house but I wouldn't have a massive one with a pool or anything, I would just buy a nice house, do it up how Scott and I would like it. I would do my driving lessons and get Scott to do his. I'd start up my dream job (owning my own cafe) and put a lot into savings for Jack (and any future sprogs). My little silly treat would be to buy lots of new figurines and some tshirts and a new laptop. I'd also get Scott a recording studio with a couple of new guitars. Jack would have his bedroom decorated how ever he wanted :) sorry that was a big one but I do literally think about it daily hahaha.

There you have it then, my 30 facts about me and such! That was actually pretty fun to do. I didn't think I'd actually manage 30 as I'm pretty rubbish at... Thinking. Like at job interviews when they say "So tell me about yourself!" And I'm just sat there... "I'm a girl... Human girl.. I'm a woman.. Uuuurrrrrm" but once you get to know me ... I'm still the same. Sometimes I can talk talk talk. Other times you may not hear from me for years!


Any who I will once again tackle my other post tomorrow but hope you enjoy these facts and bits.


If you do 30 facts or more or less, comment below I would love to read yours! I love lists remember ;)


So take it easy.


Ellie x

Right. Left.

Ok so I've deleted my original post from today as it was self loathing and silly. I will carry on my blog and of some one reads it then that's a bonus. Because its just nice to write. I'm not going to become a blogger maniac because that's not me. I'll tell you about stuff I've done and do silly posts and that's it. That's me.


I'm pretty simple (not minded). I know what I like and what I don't like. I'm not looking for a massive amount of followers. I find it difficult enough keeping up with family! If you happen to like the same stuff as me or find it interesting then yay! But otherwise, I'm just going to do this for fun instead of feeling like it has to be read.


This isn't todays official post , that will come tomorrow. This post is just to confirm I will carry on my blog. Sorry about my rather dramatic exit but I was only outside for a while haha.


So hope you carry on reading whoever you are and there will be a post later about my T42 I'm having with my mummy later :).


Take it easy.


Ellie x

I'm weird because...

Ok I love these sorts of posts. Its easy and give you a bit more incite on how I see myself, I sometimes find out some thing new along the way. I got this off of Dorkfaces blog which I love! Go check it out! Any way onto the questions!




I'm weird because...

1. I prefer staying in to going out, I could stay in everyday for at least a week before I need to get "fresh air"
2. When I'm reading or playing a game, the world around me disappears completely and I forget where I am sometimes and it can take someone shouting in my face to get me to come back to reality.
3. I like to listen to music in the bathroom. Even if I don't need to go to the toilet. I just sit in there with the door locked and listen.

I'm a bad friend because...

1. I'm an introvert, I don't like going out and I don't really like people coming round. As soon as people are in my flat I want them out. Nothing personal I just like my space.
2. You may not hear from me for lengths of time unless you contact me first.
3. I don't share, so if we're getting a pizza you will have to order your own cause you can have any of mine.

I'm a good friend because...

1. Even though I'm an introvert if you need me I will be there straight away.
2. I will listen to you and if you want it I can offer advice but if you don't I will just listen.
3. I understand when people want sometime apart and sometimes friends don't get it. I won't come hounding your door way if you've asked for time with family, bf or whatever.

I'm sad because...

1. It hasn't snowed yet and I like snow and the world stopping because people can't handle it.
2. I don't like having to receive certain benefits, even if it means I can eat for another week.
3. I can never make up my mind what I want to do with my hair

I'm happy because...

1. My little boy is developing so well and is such a cheeky beautiful boy 😊
2. I have a loving husband who makes me feel beautiful all the time
3. I have an incredibly supportive and loving family and I know I am extremely happy to have it.

I'm excited because...

1. My little boy is turning one soon and I'm having a little party for him (me)
2. I'm enjoying doing my blog and the response I've been having so far!
3. I have been designing my tattoo for Jack and its looking awesome 😁

So there you have it! I really enjoyed doing this though found thinking of anything sad really difficult as I'm in a happy place right now and intend to stay there!


Thanks for reading! I hope you do this post as well its so fun, let me know if you do! Don't forget to leave me a comment and a link to your blog so I can have a good read and will be fixing up my page a bit more so there's some links to my different sites. Thanks guys.


Take it easy.


Ellie x

Vlogging? The final frontier

Hello! (said I'd start didn't I)
Hope you are well :)


Todays post is as it says on the title, about vlogging and whether or not I start. Scott suggested it to me (my husband) and I shrugged it off as I'm pretty awkward without having a camera pointed at me. I would just want to act silly or would say 'ummm' a lot which I don't like doing.


I love watching Vlogs, like Jenna Marbles and her boyfriend Julien, Its black Friday (she's adorable and dorky) and I like just searching for Get Ready With Me tags as I find it really interesting to see how some of you ladies do your make up and before and after's are awesome. I like funny people more then anything, I cant handle seriousness and end up leaving.


So could I realistically start a vlog?
Probably. I do like to talk, especially of its something I'm passionate about or something silly. I'd probably let Scott handle the editing or at least get him to show me how to as I'm useless! I don't even know how to put links on my blog yet. Still learning.


Chances are if I didn't start I'd have to make more of an effort with my appearance. Plus you'd get to see Jack. Or at least hear him. So yes it is something I am considering. Though I can type the type but can I talk the talk. We shall see!
Any tips you'd like to throw my way about vlogging, I am more then willing to take it on board.


Not a very interesting post today! Sorry and such. But either Saturday or Sunday will have my next one, which should include pictures! Finally! Some pictures! Woop woop.


Take it easy.


Ellie x

Beauty

I never say hello at the start of a new post. Just realised. Didn't do it this time either. Whoops.


Hello! Good evening, Good morning, Good Night.
Which ever way you're headed welcome to another blog post.


Now make up. What does Ellie know about make-up? I don't wear a lot of it, anymore, you may even be shocked to learn at one point I wanted to be a make-up artist. (gasp).
Yes I did a course of Specialist Make-Up in London. I did one whole year before I realised I didn't like London. I kind of went off make up as well. London was rubbish. I met some awesome people and learnt some pretty cool things but yeah.. London and I didn't mix. I got on with it but I missed the island.


Any who. Yes so a whole yeah of learning about make up and I can give you the best Victorian look ever! I can even do the hair to go with it. Don't get me wrong it was amazing but it was pretty much a year of Victorian hair and make-up. There were bits to the side here and there but when you basically get told (by your helpful, motivational teachers) that you will probably fail at becoming a make up artist because the competition it soooo tough, it kind of knocks your confidence (especially when you're being taught how to make it look like the person isn't wearing any make up even though they are. Victorian conspiracy make up).


I love make up don't get me wrong, if I had the time nowadays I'd probably do it more. I'm not going to blame having a baby. Its not even about time. I'm just a bit lazy. I could do the whole malarky of prima, concealer, foundation, power, contouring and such but
1. I literally have to give my face a completely new colour as my face is too many colours (blotchy skin)
2. It would take me way too long as once o get started I'm too much of a perfectionist to go fast
and
3. Make up is expensive.


Living in London we had every kind of make up shop you can think of. I loved them but some of them didn't love me. Quick explanation, when I was doing my course I was sort of both/grungy/ tom boy blah blah, so I stuck out like a sore thumb in MAC. A guy literally followed me round thinking I was going to nick something. Bitch please I have a loan and an overdraft and you aren't that special. But my make up kit for college alone cost me £500 and it didn't last so we had to buy more. I got a lot from Primark and boots but there was certain colours you could only get from MAC. I loved telling them I was a make up student and showing them my discount card (their premadonna faces fell fast muahahaa)


But once I left the course and sold all the make up to pay off the £1000 overdraft. I went off make up. I still wore eye make up. But it dwindled until last year I literally just wore mascara. Only putting more on if it was a special occasion. But I'm starting to feel the itch again. I want to experiment again. I want to play with my face and make myself look pretty. I've started wearing more make up on my eyes. I've even been able to straighten my hair a couple of times (without Jack being too much of a pest trying to rip it out). Even straightening it and putting it up is just... Nice.


So yes, the make up itch is coming back. Might even try lipstick (shock horror). May even post some pictures. Though I'm not quite sure how to do it on my phone.


Do you feel nude without your make up?


Take it easy.


Ellie x

Alice: Return to Madness

I think I have mentioned at some point that I like to play, xbox, playstation, pc, ds, wii U ... I'll pretty much play anything. I'm sure in a later blog I will tell you my top 10 games but today I'm going to talk about American Mcgees Alice: Return to Madness.


Its based on Alice in Wonderland, but a darker, scarier Alice. It really looks into the Mental part of it all. Really you have to play the first one to understand most of it but it does give you flashbacks and explains most of it anyway.


Basically Alice Liddell's family (Father, Mother and sister) were all killed in a fire that destroyed her family home. The first game is Alice blaming herself and having a psychotic break. She is put into a mental asylum where she is a prisoner in her own mind. Her wonderland has been turned into a pretty messed up world of evil and she has to battle her way through to regain her 'sanity' and come to the realisation it wasn't her fault with the help of her trusty Vorpal Blade. I won't spoil it for you. Too much.


The second game, I love it, is based a few years later. Alice is out of the asylum and in the orphanage for children with traumatic events, trying to forget said traumatic events with the help of Dr Angus Bumby. But something is happening in her Wonderland, things still aren't right and it turns out that there is something new trying to destroy her mind. She has to figure out what happened in her past to fix her future and her wonderland. With the help of her Vorpal Blade yet again and the eloquent Cheshire Cat.


This game is visually beautiful, compared to the first game they obviously had a lot more time and with it being in the xbox the graphics are so much better. The different scenery's are stunning and really help drag you back into the game. I'm not one for fashion but her outfits are incredibly detailed and there's a new one for each area you are in. On a whole I fell in love with it all, I could quite happily have just wondered around the game just to look at it all.
The music is also beautiful, really eerie and I downloaded them all as ringtones, really makes you think Victorian music. Each scene has the perfect soundtrack to match it as well as when you're battling.
You revisit old villains, most have 'changed their ways' others just can't be bothered to be beaten again (Alice is just that good). The new evil creatures are these strange black gloopy beasts with doll faces. There's small ones and there's big ones that gobble you up and spit you out (yum) plus a few others. Nice.


Your weapons are upgradeable and you can download some as well (also you can download some more outfits that all have different abilities with them) you have your Vorpal Blade which is best for your up close and personal combat and throughout you gain other weapons. The peppermill is for aiming at pig snouts (also if you don't want to get too close to a bad guy just shoot with this). You also get a hobby horse which is more powerful but slower. For defense against things being flung at you, you get a very beautiful umbrella that deflects the attacks or pings them right back at the attacker (very useful).


I won't tell you too much more as I really think it needs to be played to be fully appreciated for its beauty and its story. I love playing it and I'm sure you will too. You don't have to like scary games or the like just to appreciate the dark beauty of this game. It can be enjoyed by anyone and enjoy the story as it goes.


I hope you get to enjoy the game as much as I have and will!


Take it easy.


Ellie x

Party like a one year old!

Now this post is mainly aimed at parents but I'm sure every one could learn something from it. I might as well.


My little ray of evil sunshine will be a year old in a few weeks time. That has shaken me to my core. Just so weird that nearly 11 months ago my baby was born a tiny 5lb13oz. He was a wiggly skinny little man.


Alot of mums say they forget the pain of childbirth and whilst to the most part that's true for me, I still remember some of it. I remember trying to gain back the control I was quickly loosing through the pain (oh god the pain!). I had been doing relatively well and was even patting myself on the back thinking 'this is fine, I don't know what all the fuss is about'.
I was induced you see. I went in on a Monday for a sizing scan to see if he had gotten any bigger as it was showing he was quite small. They always check your pee and such and My pee was plus 2 protein, my blood pressure was ridiculous and they did some blood tests and my midwife came in, sat down and very calmly said "your blood results have come back an absolute mess so you need to have you baby... We're going to induce you dear"
I remember saying "Yeah why not" had to come some time right? and if my blood was a mess then best to get him out safely. So up went the gel (they are not gentle!) and the waiting began.


But like I said I didn't know what all the fuss was about, had another thing of gel as the first hadn't done anything (ouuuuuuuuch!). Felt little twinges that they said were contractions but it was more like a mild period pain or to men .. Like you'd eaten a bit too much and wanted to undo your button but had guests so you weren't allowed!
More waiting and midwife checked to see if I had dilated at all (OUUUCH) and I was about 2cm ... But she didn't want to wait anymore so she said "Right.. I'm going to break your waters for you. We need to get this going." Okie dokie boss! I just nodded and looked at Scott as the realisation started to crawl in my brain that our baby would be here soon. My mum was on her way as at 6pm on the Tuesday I had my waters broken (slight ouch this time).


It was done, Scott was speaking his mum when I felt the first proper contraction. OOOOUCH. What was that? I grabbed Scott panicking and he looked at me and realised that I was in pain. I went back to my original room where my dad and his fiance were sitting waiting for us.
I was then told to WALK AROUND... to help things get going a bit more. OOOOOUCH... they then brought me some dinner as they felt I hadn't eaten enough and I would needed all the energy I could get for the next 7 hours and 3 minutes exactly. I was bouncing gently on an exercise ball whilst eating a few steamed carrots (I thought it would be carrot sticks but it was literally a plate of steamed carrots). Every time the pain came I would focus on one spot and hum something (the more painful the louder the hum... I hummed the pirates of the Caribbean tune if you're wondering), my dads fiance flannelled my head with cool water during this time (I suggest you have some one do the same, its amazing). We were moved to the labour ward and After about an hour I went onto gas and air... That was good, though the timing was always off, then at 9 I had the diamorphine... It didn't work. At all. Then at 11 I had the epidural. It also didn't work. Gas and air were my only friends but they made it all very hazy.


I remember a burning sensation. I remember talking to my sister on the phone briefly telling her how much I loved her, I think she was crying, Then I remember being told to stop pushing and thinking 'Nope! You wanted me to push and now I'm not stopping' (I should have stopped pushing, 2nd degree tear!) and at 1:03am the 5th March, my baby boy being put on my chest and the haze lifted.
He was here... In my arms. My Jack. The wave of love that swept over me was too much, it felt like I was going to burst.


And now, that tiny, gloopy, wet perfect potato is under 8 weeks away from being 1 and no longer potato like. I remember saying to myself I wouldn't do anything big. I would just have some people round and family and a bit of cake. Because he won't remember, he won't even realise its for him. He'll probably cry a lot. But then I thought...


Sod it. I will give him a party. He'll have cake and we will celebrate. Because its not just for him. Its for me, for his dad, for this amazing year, for the moment he was placed in my arms and that wave of love flooded over me. I will celebrate that with all the people who have loved and helped and been there all through out. I will celebrate the day I was given the most perfect gift and I will spoil him on that day. Because he deserves it as much as we do. He has helped me grow, as much as I've helped him. Hes evil, hes an angel, hes funny, hes naughty and he's mine.
So as much as it may seem silly to some to do too much for him, that he won't remember. He doesn't have to remember. The pictures will show him, I will tell him. I'm so excited 😊


Take it easy. and party like your 1!


Ellie x